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Besides that

Besides of talking to my God. 

I also found my serenity with words. and read. 

Apparently, these are only my remedies. Cool! I dont need to shop, no vacations, no no no. I just sometimes find something good to eat. Good tips on sudoku, good accompany too. But since i was picky to whom to be closed to me..i only got several people. Around 2 or 3. 

I'm that secretive. 

Especially with guys. 

Whats up with guys? 

Are they that dead easily falling into a girl on the internet... 

what.. just look on the photos, u already fallen in love? 

wanna marry me.. hmm i dont think so. 

Although i'm getting older and not that pretty. not that skinny. But those things just bother me. I hope i can be friends just like i was with khairi, mahathir, kacang, puven, sasi, bad.. Nothing exceptional. 

I'm writing back bcz i hope and i believed that they don't read this anymore. Its just 4 me. 

Talk anything u want! i dont care! What!? i wont get marry?! Whatt.. i'm that fugly? i dont deserve a worthwhile husband? ada org nak pinang je dah cukup? kawen free??? siam?? f*ck you. Just go away. i dont wanna see ur face., I forgive u, and myself and i move on. Whatever, even if i dont busy. i keep on busy and busy like hell. U wont find me anywhere. consider that i die. 

I'm typing with the healing broken heart with a song sounded like this... "everything that u do, i'm amazed about u" 

and remind me of someone that i used to adore since i was a kid and now. 

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