when I felt I was really manipulated and became a cleaner of someone's fault and to be blam of. I quit. because things were downhill and I might lose my mom. people were oblivious. some of em. I quit. I hate them. but I decided to build a new life. past 2 weeks, I have resigned, I get so much busy than before. I cleaned up the house diligently, read books more than before. I fall sick so bad. I just realized, I don't want to get lonely what made me felt lonely now because, I'm sick.i can't do much,all I do is sleep and rest and I'm lonely. luckily,I talked to God a lot. there are several guys try to get to know me,but..I don't know,I just felt like they're trying to spare their time not get lonely too. Which is okay...but,this is not cool man. maybe I'm in phase pretty sick right now, so my mood swing is a stardom. I hope I get better and find my tempo back to read and write. what I write is article,I don't read novels and don't know ho