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Mak2 patut menjaga kesihatan dpd muda. bukan hanya utk kelihatan cantik.. 

Tapi lebih dpd itu.. 

Itu yang aku belajar setelah 4-5 hari dekat Hosp ni.. aku sedih tengok mak2 yang sakit kencing manis, kaki berdarah, bernanah, obese yng mmg tahap serius, anak2 masih 7, 8 tahun.. Allahuakbar.. Boleh bayang tak anak tu nak pursue impian dia mcm mana? 

aku faham.. aku sedih sangat bila aku tgk adik2 ni kena lalui sedangkan dia terlalu muda. Aku boleh faham sbb aku banyak lepaskan impian aku waktu aku remaja dlu. Mak tak ada kencing manis yang sampai kritikal waktu aku zaman sekolah. Tapi mak ada masalah depresi. 

Mak lepaskan depressed mak dgn makan. mak makan dgn tak terkawal waktu aku start Tingkatan 2 sampai aku masuk Kolej Islam. waktu tu aku 19 tahun kot.. dia proceed smpi aku 20.. aku decide aku nak lose weight masatu, sbb aku berat 80kg time tu. gila. hahaha.

Sebenarnya aku pon depressed time tu, aku dah lupakan apa yg berlaku waktu yg tak best dulu tu.. aku lupakan segalanya. aku lupakan kawan2 aku, aku lupakan cikgu2 aku, aku lupakan segalanya. kecuali mak aku. Katakan mak aku tinggalkan waktu aku kecil dlu, mau aku lupakan mak aku juga. Ya, hati aku keras sebenarnya. 

Kesimpulan dia skg.. entahla. aku tak boleh nak cakap bnde2 yg confidential dan sensitif dekat org lain mcm tu je. Tambah plak dorg tak kenal aku.. susah nak cakap.. Knpe.. korang tak sayang diri ke.. what happened actually.. what made u into that position..? why u dont seek help. why u dont read and find or do something inspiring, revenge in form of success? 

I just ponder, sitting here and wonder. How is my life when i get older. 

Jangan la aisha kawen dan ada anak yg rebel. ya llah.. doa sangat.. Tolong la spy aisha tua nanti jd nenek yang independant, sihat, sampai ajal meninggal je terus. I really hope so.. 

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