Since i only choose selected people around me. When i got proposed with someone. with several men. so, i was like stunned. nothing like this has ever happened before. With mom keep persuading me to get married. Okey! i will get married. But so now u see, i will take a long break. like long enough. maybe a month. so i wanna know what will happen and i just wanted to look from behind. Its not being someone whom evil. But since people keep forcing me. then, i have no chance to resist. kalau u nak boleh je. i boleh buat. i boleh. insyaallah. I stop the conversation, i took a wudhuk. and i pray to Allah... i talk to Him. even i know Allah already know everything abt this. But this, hmm. this is beyond. I said.. "ya allah, i need someone to talk to. and someone tell me, what should i do" and Allah send someone whom very nice to me all this while. but we're not that close actually. and i speak to her with many things that i'm juggling rn. Its just so sad.